Stellan Perrick has released a Christian Contemporary Music (CCM) track called Golden Baby.Stellan shared the following (very personal) story about this song: "Golden baby is my own personal story which is a little dark. But the idea was to take that darkness and make it somehow enjoyable. That's why even though golden baby has very dark and emotional lyrics, it sounds like a dance track. At a very low point in my life, I felt very worthless, feeling like everyone is somehow better than me, cooler than me, how got it all together better than me.
I felt unlucky, pretty much my whole life. I was upset with the whole world seeing how things are just unfair, like good people having the most troubles, attractive people being nicely treated compared to others, people born in economically better places than where I was born, people born with healthy childhoods with all needs met, people who seem to connect with people so easily while I struggle so much to do so….. many things like this, although I don’t know why, I was upset, that it was unfair and that some people have it better off than others. Because as humans, we all feel the same things, but, why is it that someone who is born in a rich family gets to live well and someone who is born in a poor family has barely any money to meet his needs? I was very very upset with that and many other things like this…..
Because I was jealous, and I can say that because that is exactly how I felt. I wanted to be good looking like all those other kids, I wanted to have all the money those rich kids get to enjoy, I wanted to have a big house that my friend gets to enjoy, because I don’t see any difference. Yes, I didn’t work for it, but neither did he! Or anyone for that matter. We just say that it's luck, but I was upset because why isn’t it that I was given that luck? Why not me? Why wasn’t I born with blonde hair and blue eyes? Why wasn’t I born with my parents being filthy rich? Why can’t I connect to people just like others who seem to do it so easily? All of these questions I didn’t have answers to, which is why I became very very upset.
I was disappointed because I thought the world was unfair. I thought if you are lucky, you are a ‘golden baby’ and that's the only way you can be born into all those things you wish for. Whatever it is, like looks, where you are born, place, how happy you are, etc… So all those people who I saw as ‘lucky’ I thought that they were chosen, like they are lucky because God chose them, and they are ‘golden babies’ and I’m not because I wasn’t lucky that I could enjoy all that, God chose them and not me.
But I spent time with myself and God, I learned more about how Gold is formed. Natural Gold, Sun is not enough to synthesize gold. Enough energy to form gold only comes from star explosions in a supernova. These are extreme conditions, and it’s a lot of pressure and energy from which Gold gets formed. I started relating that to all the difficulties I had, and it made sense that they were all in a way, extreme conditions, lots of pressure and energy, which hurt a lot, but! I realized that real gold is formed exactly like that! So in other words, it’s not those other people who are golden babies, IT'S ME! They are all gold plated, not real gold, I didn’t realize that God was giving me all those difficulties as energy to turn me into a real ‘Golden Baby’ !!!!!! So basically, I am the real golden baby!!!!
So I made this song for people who feel unlucky, who feel like they have too many difficulties and that God is being unfair to them, people who feel lonely because nobody can relate to their struggles, people who feel like their worthless, and people who don’t want to keep living feeling like everyone is privileged except for them. It’s a message to them saying that it’s not everyone else, it's YOU! You are the real golden baby! God loves you so much! It’s not everyone else, ITS YOU!!! Exactly you. And I, through my journey of loving myself, made this song for people who have felt like I did at one point so that people would never have to feel like how I felt. It is my message of love to each and every one of them."
Lyrics:
Where’s the half that goes with mine?
They say that love is patient but who likes to wait in line?
Your pretty thighs can’t hide your pain
baby your like glass
I see
Through
You
In a second
Don’t you worry
I’ve got my own
I just wanna party
I don’t wanna be lonely
I want drugs inside me
Don’t make me wait
I got burnt from midnight terrors
Now no Booz can burn me
Catch my legs dancing on their own
Until they bleed
ooo
Im a golden baby
ooo
Im a golden baby
golden baby
IMMA IMMA
Golden baby
IMMA IMMA
Can’t put a price on a priceless item
My legs keep dancing on their own
Can’t put a price on a priceless item
My legs keep dancing on their own
Attention is not why you cry
You were raised in your mamma’s milk
Affection is what you crave
You just hate honesty, ah
I like them party freaks
The ones that bite back when bit
If you fancy a piece of me
Don’t choose the heart
I just wanna party
I don’t wanna be lonely
I want drugs inside me
Don’t make me wait
I got burnt from midnight terrors
Now no Booz can burn me
Catch my legs dancing on their own
Until they bleed
ooo
Im a golden baby
ooo
Im a golden baby
golden baby
IMMA IMMA
Golden baby
IMMA IMMA
Can’t put a price on a priceless item
My legs keep dancing on their own
Can’t put a price on a priceless item
My legs keep dancing on their own
I just wanna party
I don’t wanna be lonely
I want drugs inside me
Don’t make me wait
I got burnt from midnight terrors
Now no Booz can burn me
Catch my legs dancing on their own
Until they bleed
Accelerating mid break…..
ooo
Im a golden baby
ooo
Im a golden baby
golden baby
IMMA IMMA
Golden baby
IMMA IMMA
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Milli Milli Ah Milli Ah Milli Milli Ah
Milli Milli Ah Milli Ah Milli Milli Ah
You can listen to the track on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1AaifQDGnuSAOBfg4GkMfo
Here is a link to the video on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2cF5xvbClI
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